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a fluorescent room
bidding goodbye to secret
possibilities

"Dear Nintendo, We need a new Mario game, where you rescue the princess in the first ten minutes, and for the rest of the game you try and push down that sick feeling in your stomach that she’s ‘damaged goods’, a concept detailed again and again in the profoundly sex negative instruction booklet, and when Luigi makes a crack about her and Bowser, you break his nose and immediately regret it. When Peach asks you, in the quiet of her mushroom castle bedroom ‘do you still love me?’ you pretend to be asleep. You press the A button rhythmically, to control your breath, keep it even."
— Joey Comeau

wat the eff is going on.

my head is about to explode.

here and there

There are times when it's no longer acceptable to be incompetent. mostly, this is when you are in a group of people who are a) all better than you, or b) all worse than you. As the 2 projects + senior design final stretch roll around, I find I'm involved in both types. Dammit. It would have been nice to laze around in mediocrity for a little while longer.

I really really want a PS2. For Katamari and Okami. Whether I want it enough to buy it remains unseen.

OMG my dad erased all my progress on twilight princess. It's true, last night I cried myself to sleep. Now I just stare forlornly at the wii console, involuntarily willing that damn skeleton chase in the sacred grove to have already happened. Oh no...the more I think about it, the more traumatized I get.

I'm gonna start beachbody insanity! Was gonna start on monday, but from the looks of things, it's gonna start on thursday...

The parents said yes to Taiwan. w00t

And that's about the day. Roommate dressing up and going out dinner tonight!

nannannananana katamari damacyyyyyyyyyy

observation

maybe i don't want to proclaim it from the rooftops.

it's enough the way it is, without all the publicity of facebook or whatever else.

the only person that needs to know already does.


and while we're on the topic of facebook?

your closest friends won't really use it, because they won't need to.

savannah

was fucking awesome, and we didnt even lose any kayaks this time.

a little tension here and there, and i suppose some complications, but i havent laughed that hard for that long all year.

so... beach trip?

cs lewis

“There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, "All right, then, have it your way.”

gap

at the end of the day, you want someone with whom you can be yourself.

this is important.

people change depending on who they're around. around cute people, you tend to be more cheery, around introspective people you feel freer about expressing your thoughts.

so if you find someone and you find you're just, you, then

maybe you should keep them.

holy fuck

did anyone ever play the rocketboys' 'signs' and hear it lead straight into 'heartbeat'?

jeebus.

something interesting

Steven said something yesterday during one of our phone calls that I'd never considered before, thought of in that way.

He said, when you truly like someone and you click with them in a way that you are both connected to each other, something happens. Other attractive people do not get uglier. They just go out of focus.

When he said that, I could immediately see how he was right, empirically. It really never occurred to me before he said it, though.

Other people, and how cute they are, do not change. It seems that your perspective of them changes in regards to who you're with. They become background noise.

I think that's super interesting. Don't you?

fake plastic trees

we're on to round two.

i suppose on some scale, i am viscerally aware of how pathetic that is.

on the other hand, i'm ordering jimmy johns tonight!

like ice in water

all i need is a place to call home
just some peace of mind
to make me feel whole
a breath or two may be
what i have been looking for
but my time is gone
like ice in water

time is all we have
and i have been collecting
i told you i was empty
and you said:

"time is all we have
and you were just collecting
memories of a few good things you love"

i want to make this all up to you
but i'm sorry for not wanting to be sorry
but lately i've been wondering
if i'm good enough
am i really gone
like ice in water?

time is all we have
and i have been collecting
i told you i was empty
and you said:

"time is all we have
and you were just collecting
memories of a few good things you love"

time is all we have
and i am just collecting

Sometimes it's just easier to lie.

can't take my eyes off of you

 you know that thing, right? that thing inside you that says, hey, pay attention. this is important. this is really, really important.

it's almost 2am. i wonder if it's too late.

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And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time

And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time

And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off of you


I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind...
My mind
My mind...

Till I find somebody new

exclusivity

 in context: the coding part of our optimization model's pretty much been taken over by andrew and ab, who do most of it and are fiercely protective of it. the rest of the scheduling team is like doop doop doop

. which leads to this conversation:

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Rustann: what do we have left to do?
besides a lot

me: haha
we could start on client slides
while andrew and ab talk in their Secret Coding Club
lol i kid
but i mean, might as well get it out of the way

Rustann: we could pass that off to winfield and dane
you think we could do EDD for glaze?

me:  you mean like connecting it to the matrix information?

Rustann: glaze has no washes i think
Rustann: we could form our own club

me: yeah let's do it
i'll bring the juice, you bring the cookies
we'd totally be way more awesome than their club
just sayin'.

Rustann: robes
!

me: oh damn
baller haha

Rustann: all or nothing
nut up or shut up


me: ok
we'll order the robes
you've convinced me