STUPID GRINNING SO MUCH STUPID GRINNING

there's an app

that tracks the stars and moves as you move the phone across the sky!

if nothing comes of it, i won't harbor any ill will. the brief feel of his soft hair against my fingers and the clean smelling grass mashed up against our faces as i stared inches away into these pretty eyes and the scratches i have from rolling down that hill and those damn annoying 20 mosquito bites i got and the great conversation, it was just a really nice way to spend that night. and BATS! and three stars. nothing has to come of it. it was great for what it was, and i can appreciate that. it doesn't have to be anything more. it's lovely just like that. 

we can press onward.

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my mom, dad, and brother all tell me these grievances they have to each other with all these super deep seated family issues and assumptions and tears and hurts and drastic strange leaps in logic that don't actually make any sense and it makes them all angrier

INSTEAD OF COMMUNICATING LIKE ACTUAL ADULTS AND FUNCTIONAL HUMAN BEINGS

so on any given day i hear some variation of 'don't tell your mom/brother/dad'.
and i often ask, why don't you just tell them and the answer is always, 'they already know.' 'they should know'.

BREAKING NEWS: THEY DO NOT


things at home are pretty heavy.
but when it's as shitty as it is and no one will change, i suppose all you can do is go home when you can and be the punching bag.

BMP 9/1

bmp 9/1: laid my drunken self down in the middle of the road outside rocky mountain pizza.

got RIGHT BACK UP in about 2 milliseconds, but STILL COUNTS cuz there was a car coming

asdf in a constant state of buzzed. in terms of beers and no liquor, i wanna say 5? 4?. viva la gameday.

i met a boy

ummm i met a boy.

eeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

we spent two hours stargazing in the burger bowl and talking and maybe being a little too close.

eee.

[grins stupidly]

illiad

i found out today that a lot of our mutual friends think his new girlfriend is super annoying.

i know i said to go in peace and when i'm not around it, i don't even care, but
that's still fucking hilarious hahahah

and no,
considering everything i went through, and the fact that apparently you're being all PDA with her in public, and the fact that i am by nature defending this chick to lauren and idek why--
i get to be as petty about this as i want.