あのさ ... sometimes mike still crosses my mind. and even though it sucked, god, am i grateful that he happened.

it goes to show, it's like that dude said: better even the swiftly fading moment of blah blah blah than the epoch long unconsciousness of the stone. or something.

nothing hurts forever, and that right there; that's some wonderful news

ever wonder if i will ever like someone as much as i liked him? anyway.

god, i want you out of my life so fucking bad.

ohhhh that dirty bastard, he figured out how to fire his shots so they hit, and of course it would be through music.

orion

i am okay with this mild and harmless crush i have on you being the most poorly kept secret in the world.

maybe then you'd know that if you ever wanted to, you could do something about it.

you know. not that it's the right time,

but if the stars ever aligned.

day after snowboards

everything hurts so bad but

• everyone else boarded way harder than me
• my friend is currently dealing with road burn
• soreness always goes away

so i'm just going to sit here and feebly mew on my blog 

olympic airwaves

it doesn't hurt anymore.
i dont visit your facebook or feel the need to talk about you to other people online.
it's like, when you moved on, suddenly i realized that i did too.

soon, i won't even mention your name. not anywhere, not even here. that's how i'll really know that it stuck.

and then after that, you won't even cross my mind.

defriending kcho was the best decision i ever made. if your name follows, i daresay it won't be skin off either of our backs.

!

god, i can't explain it, but i feel so fucking fine today.

it doesn't hurt anymore, and i don't know if it's a one day thing and i'll relapse, or if it's the start of something better, but oh my god, i'm okay, holy shit, i've been waiting forever for you. even if it goes away, i know without a doubt that this, this is the first time i've been default better. and it feels amazing.

i'm doing great!!!!!!!!

:D