lasers

days it took before i broke into the alcohol: 16

if you asked me why i suddenly felt crazed and broken and aching again, i couldn't tell you.

suddenly you just start crying again, and know that you have to wait until it gets better, because it always does.

call it a relapse.

but today i am cutting off ties so help me god, i am getting rid of all of them.

even if i'm drunk for it.