yesterday

sang leaves atlanta next tuesday.

i'll fucking cry over every goodbye i want to and if you have a problem with that you can go straight to hell

because you knew me when i was a younger me

if the person you are with is not

teaching you anything
making you a better person
making you more of a person
doing something you admire
being someone you admire

then you are not with the right person.

i know you wanted someone to accept you as you were. i understand the comfort in that.
but we're not here to comfort each other. we're here, on this earth, because we have an eye blink before we're gone, and we're meant to poke and prod each other into something more. something greater. something more beautiful. we cannot ever be stagnant, we cannot ever stop learning, and we cannot ever stop searching for someone to inspire us to start.

got invited to a party today where the only person i'd have known was the person i came with.

fuck.

you're my ticket out, will.

i just wish i didn't have to worry about things not being platonic. between you and myles, i think my life could be radically different.

qu'est-ce qu'il faut faire?

edit: FUCK IT, I'M GOING, #YOLO9

i know, okay, i know it's normal to see pictures on facebook of her new boyfriend. of his new girlfriend. new relationships, people still friends, yada yada yada. tagged photos of old loves.

it still seems heartless.

the cone of shame

dudes that have a cologne that smells amazing and lingers: i hate you.

because there just isn't a non-creepy way to tell you that. or ask you what you're wearing.

or surprise cuddle you and never let go.

v___v;;

man, i feel so bad for any ex girlfriend of annie's now-boyfriend. i really dunno how you'd handle such complete and utter upgrade devastation. like it's not even fair

edit: WAIT i meant annie b. the girl that just got a boyfriend today and is probably the prettiest one i know. i only realized ex post facto that kevin's gf has the same name, lmao oh geez. how dumb would that have been: "I SURE FEEL BAD FOR KEVIN'S EX GIRLFRIEND" /shakes head

tell em all to go to hell

i'm doing this thing where i try to be less critical and back talky.

i have SO MUCH to complain about. and so much to be critical about. people to complain about, circumstances to get mad over.

but i'm presented with this opportunity right now and every moment henceforth to not do a single fucking thing about that, and well.

let's give that a try.

it's so haaaaaaaaard :( etc etc etcrawrawrawrawrawrawrwrwrawrawr