foresight (hindsight)

I don't know if it was only the guys I knew, or if it's all of us and we just haven't realized. I don't think I'd know even with serious introspection. 

There's something in us that is just. Ugly. Where, if we don't get what we want, we'll feel the need to hurt that other person. Claws out and words specifically uttered with the intention of wounding. I can't say I've felt it, but it's been a really long time since I badly wanted something of someone. 

Of course, I could just be spouting shit. But sometimes I don't think we realize what other people can see from the things that we say. 

just gonna take a minute to let it ride

aw man... The pharm drug stock I'd invested in was supposed to get its FDA ruling yesterday, but turns out there'll be a delay for one or two more weeks. 

Let's see what happens.

I have a friend in new york who I've been talking to pretty frequently for a few weeks now. He's been trying to get me to fly up, but... yeah. Anyway, he was like I could take you shopping! (in new york, envy envy envy) and if you want to go to a more upscale restaurant, bring heels and something nicer. And I thought, for the first time since I was in Chicago, what an interesting lifestyle. Idk it just seems so different from here, where everyone still lives with their parents and doesn't really experience the atlanta nightlife. Definitely a different vibe...thought provoking, in the least. Snow in NY would really be something to see, huh? 

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I SLEPT 14 HOURS TODAY (collectively, not at once). I'M REGRESSING. 

Damn, now I know why everyone uses Pirastro Gold.

We might as well be strangers (for all I know of you now)

wow, uhhh. I ran into K today by random chance in the parking lot with Em and Sanjay. He was all well spoken and confident and social. Looked good, too. Haha, didn't even recognize him until he said hi to us.

But yeah. That's the price you pay, I guess. 

Whatever, it's all gravy. Back to your regularly scheduled programming. 

lol

UHHHHH I don't have enough tolerance for pharm stocks awaiting fda approval. Sure, if they do it potentially jumps like A MILLION PERCENT. But the risks are pretty huge.

LOL I BOUGHT IN ANYWAY

Expect euphoria or extreme anger within the next six days.

p.s Finally saw Kubrik's Eyes Wide Shut today. Tom Cruise circa 1999 was a Very Good Looking Man. 

giving me a run for my money, honey

Somebody is making creme brulee today!!!

Where's my blowtorch?

Coldplay

Oh

Wow

 

[deep breath]

COOOLLLLDDDDPPLLLAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

*HYPERVENTILATES*

The power of facebook picture perusal

...Damn. I was a lot hotter in freshman year. 

WHAT HAPPENED? 

I need to draw diagrams and assess the situation. Who knows how to make stick figures out of toothpicks and gumdrops? Cuz I have use for people with that particular skill set.

Piano

Dude. Muscle memory is an awesome, awesome thing.

:D :D :D

Man, what is this? People are actually blogging, and my dashboard isn't completely dead and stagnant.

THE WORLD IS ENDING!!!1 

 

andy stanley_staying in love

• Falling in love requires a pulse. Staying in love requires a plan.
• Love is not a state of being. It needs to be a verb.

Wow. Today's sermon....wow. Once again, Andy changes everything I thought I knew about a life-relevant topic. I mean, the above points were main. But if you guys could hear it.... it's so much more than that. Dunno how to say it, but I feel. Like I'm going into something a little less blind. Andy does something as a pastor that I have never heard or felt anywhere else. Man, it's amazing.

"And we know that in this world and in this culture, the chances of finding someone you can stay in love with, something deeper than soul mates, forever, is slim. Not just someone to live with but to really do life with. But somehow, despite that, we all hope and believe that it can happen. And I think that is the thumbprint of God on your soul."

eta: OH DUH. YOU CAN HEAR IT.

www.northpointministries.org  under messages. 

I wanna draw you a floorplan of my head

Yay for awkward guitar chords coming easier to me! 

I actually like Matt Costa. Still sounds like every other eric hutchinson matt nathanson gavin degraw jon mclaughlin I know of, but not too shabby, Mr. Costa. 

Slowly reverting back to the person I don't want to be. Much as I love summer, that shit is not going down.

The distance is killing me. 

Death cab concert was not bad at all! I wonder if Ben will ever do a solo tour again. Next up: COLDPLAY. 

The worst thing a critical person can be is observant. Fuck. 

This weekend we're gonna plant basil, tomatoes, and whatever else. Carrots? Possibly eggplant if I can convince my mom to buy it. 

Saw venus flytraps for the first time ever. Dude, how do they eat bugs?! It's amazing!!! Also weird.

Come on, come on...

Today is the death cab concert!

I hope it'll be as great as last time. But then, last time I was holding someone's hand as the dying strains of 'Transatlanticism' echoed through the Tabernacle. It was pretty epic.

Things that rules don't apply to

The truth, plain and simple: Everyone's a sucker for somebody. I could elaborate, but it would be a whole lot of crap about something everyone already knows. The question is, is this explanation or rationalization? 

 

SQUEE

MY BROTHER JUST CALLED MY MOM AND TOLD HIM HE WAS POSSIBLY BUYING AN ENGAGEMENT RING. 

Am I too much of a cynic for thinking half the reason he wants to get married is because it's like the best time to buy a house if you actually have money right now? 

I've heard in American customs the ring is supposed to be 3 months salary, right? But he's not really thinking of buying her a >10k ring, right?

 

Right?

errit

*sound of a record scratching*

Wait. 

Wait wait wait wait. 

Did my brother just leave his guitar here?

The one that is 5x as expensive and better than mine?!!?!? So between that and all the books..and sheet music...and office supplies (he hoards BOXES of them..)...

You guys, his room is like a treasure trove!

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