since time is so short,

oh taiwanese boys. why so cute? :<

off to get breakfast. gonna try the peanut drink cold this time! and radish cakes.

i woke up today and thought, i really really want to have fun tomorrow. i hope orientation will be great. and if half the circumstance is disposition, let the battle be half won.

LOL that sounded so fucking poetic, huh? i am a BALLER like that. or uber lame.

HUNGRY TIEMZ

aw, man

damn, i am crushing so hard...
eta: having adequate amounts of fun in taiwan. :)

food for thought

if i were a vulgar guy, i would say i just came in my pants.

but, you know, i'm not.

what's your name, what's your name?

a classic case of Just Another Pretty Face.

don't get your panties in a twist.

damn those half half boys. should be illegal, how cool they are.

to claim (v.)

いいよ。

CTFD

We humans are all so very territorial, huh.

need more cillian murphy

I leave in 6 days for taiwan.

A FINE TIME TO START THINKING ASIAN BOYS ARE CUTE.

This is going to suck!! All the boys are so cute there >:|

I blame asian dramas. It was like a fucking gateway drug.

we all have to get stronger

i won't ever understand how we as people can coexist after our relationships have been irrevocably changed: makeups, breakups, jealousies, triangles, betrayals, letdowns...

the only explanation i can come up with is that any and all involved parties have ceased to care about it. (not to say that they don't care about each other. but also not to say that they necessarily do.)

does this work? or are we all just fooling ourselves? my ignorance these days seems to know no bounds.

apathy has always seemed to be the last frontier in which memories are given significance. long enough, and they eventually mean nothing.

is it better? is being on friendly terms worth discounting the memories and emotions that caused them to be on bad terms?

does this work?




..actually, fuck that. i'm not fucking around with any of this shit, it's a fucking zoo in here. where's my nintendo?

superficial post is superficial

i watched this drama called Atashinchi no Danshi and long story short, i totally think asian boys are attractive again. WTF

relapse into 2008, only replace nishikido ryo with kaname jun. BUT THEY LOOK LIKE EACH OTHER?

clearly i either need to stop watching dramas or find a nongirly hot japanese boyfriend

in other news, quote of the day:

Daniel: i will conquest of asian women
through enourmous SC placeings

rules don't stop

oh thank fuck i have plans tonight.

i was beginning to wallow in my own pathetic-ness despite carrying on a pretty regular conversation with sang, regular being par for the course insults and snark.

off to my favorite beer bar with emily! hello porter. hello, hitachino. <3

your face all aglow

makes me long for the crisp, broody shock of autumn. but we savor summer as long as we do.

Have regrets. They are fuel. On the page they flare into desire.

_geoff dyer

aka the other transcendentalist

all my best thoughts were stolen by the ancients.

_ralph waldo emerson

more facebook shenanigans

on one hand, i can see it. when you've lost someone, you want the whole world to know who they were. you don't want anyone to forget, least of all yourself. or what they meant to you.

on the other hand, i can't understand. especially for the loss of life.. grief has always seemed to me such a private thing.

tl;dr

restless waiting.  dragging out a slow death while knowing the end game is making me twitchy and full of anxiety. i want nothing more than to do something, and yet i can't. currently in limbo.


tattoos intrigue me. i've resolved to get one sometime, but require more thought on where. i also can't help but think people who get them, with their proud pictures on facebook, are incredibly stupid. trust me, i'm all for it. i actually thought that tribal pikachu on your forearm was kinda cool. and those gothic wings that cover your entire back? really, really hot.

do people think before they do these things? what about your wedding dress, or company dinners or things like that? are you going to deal that inconvenience forever to gain the lust of more boys in our too-short youth? it's not unheard of, i suppose. but these people won't necessarily be working in the corporate field, where rolling up your collared shirt would be a great thing to do. or maybe having a tattoo will make them more interesting at their wedding. idk. for me, the cost is too high. more deliberation required.


i'm trying to do one thing a day that scares me, inspired by baz luhrmann's sunscreen song. i think it'll be good. it's been good. i can look back and think of situations where if i had said to myself, 'hey, remember this can be your thing for today!" i know i wouldnt have regretted it.

sometimes it's stupid shit, like working up the nerve to talk to someone i think is interesting, or throwing caution to the wind. sometimes it doesn't really matter if i do it or not, except for tiny little parts in you that become glad you did it. other times, you realize there's a reason you were scared to do it. that doing shit like this is not always going to pay off. awkward silences, funny stares, near car crash misses.

idk, it was just a thought. this past week has been interesting, to say the least. never before, i think, have i felt conflicted so many times and then ruled in favor of  'ok'. when before the ideas would have been shut down with no room even for debate or indecision.

it's somewhat of a horrible feeling. but we press on, and i'd rather feel it every day, for what it brings me.

you're stuck in my mind all the time

fuck, how is this so beautiful?

THE SHOW

jukebox was amazing. i'm kind of in love with the pianist, he played all those octaves so fast and accurately!! i wonder if he was classically trained. mini tigers was only okay, but not bad at all. at first i was surprised that free energy was headlining...and then they started and it was so fucking loud and fun and awesome that i was like oh. ok. awesome!!

it was their farewell gig that marked the end of their tour together, so for all 3 bands, members of the other bands would get up on stage and play tambourines and shit. it was so cute! everyone just rocking out having a good time. when free energy did it, i got to jump onstage and play some weird rainmaker that mini tigers used. it was kinda awkward lol but so much fun! I GOT TO DANCE ONSTAGE AT THE STAR BAR, GUYS. I DONT EVEN KNOW.

probably the best concert i've ever been to, for sheer good times.

i love star bar. the show was completely amazing.

COMPLETELY AMAZING.

everybody's changing

could not be more transparent if you tried

I'm sick of just listening to music.

Time to dance.

thought837

i was talking to someone over video chat since they are not currently in georgia, and hang out tiemz are hard with anyone anyway in the summer. staring at the tinny screen and listening to the click clack of the keyboard, i felt this immediate rush of fondness.

i am so very lucky to know the people that i know.