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sick, on my period, interviews, and currently working extended hours for the biggest project our entire department has had in a decade.

but it aint no thang, because hell, remember grad school?

hahahahahahaa positivity really gets me sometimes. and i get it.

phile

 me:  what brand?

 Sang:  audio technica

 me:  BEATZ BY DRE

jk

dont kill me

 Sang:  ok

im gonna be busy for the rest of my life now

 me:  hahahaha

 Sang:  bye

but i would be okay living quietly with you, and having it take years and years.

必然

so word on the street is, K and his girlfriend broke up. yeah, nobody saw that one coming, what with his moving to a different state for a girl he'd started long distance dating for less than 6 months.

some people just don't have any sense. and it's not like a girl from new york is going to humor him just because he's in love with her.

better luck next time, i suppose.

i really have to ask though--

what did you really think was going to happen by asking someone to fill an emotional gap that you never learned to fill yourself?

residual bitterness, ok, maybe a little. i'm working on it.

oh my god

who the hell would ever want to do this relationship shit?

3 days in and all i can think about is how much free time i had and how much accountability i had to ABSOLUTELY NO ONE but myself

too bad i kinda like this one.

well shit.

me:  yeah well

 Linda:  ?

 me:  i'm kinda waiting for the ball to drop

 Linda:  what you mean?

 me:  there's gotta be something wrong with this guy

 Linda:  lol

so paranoid

 me:  there's no wa y ok

he's super well read

and exercises

and is nice and makes jokes with his dad

and gets my stats nerd outs

 Linda:  ppl like that exist okay

 me:  I DONT BEVLIEVE IT

 Linda:  lol

and you may have snagged one of the few

rejoice

okay gn

tired

 Sent at 10:51 PM on Monday

 me:  still dont believ it

pickup truck

i wanna be the type of person that hangs out with you when i'm happy and free. not when i need a shoulder or an ear, or when i'm running away from someone (myself or otherwise). everyone uses people, it's true. we as humans like to be needed, or useful. but sometimes, when things are good, we just wanna share that goodness.

friends are tools, but not just that.