You know when someone you love hurts you, and it's that much deeper because you love them? and when they come back saying sorry, you know you should be angrier but for the life of you, you just can't be. because of the same reason that they had any sort of affect on you in the first place. their apology is good enough, even when logically it shouldnt be. even when you know they'll hurt you again because they're just the type of people who are prone to harsh words, or condescension, or pride. so that was my brother this weekend. it's strange, feeling all the anger rush out of me, dissipating at his quick emailed sorry. even stranger, considering the vague bitterness that it had that effect, and that will again no matter how many times it happens in the future. love is love, and it's unfair in all directions. in this respect, i think this is the closest i'll ever get to understanding God and His grace towards us.