god, i can't explain it, but i feel so fucking fine today.
it doesn't hurt anymore, and i don't know if it's a one day thing and i'll relapse, or if it's the start of something better, but oh my god, i'm okay, holy shit, i've been waiting forever for you. even if it goes away, i know without a doubt that this, this is the first time i've been default better. and it feels amazing.
i'm doing great!!!!!!!!