well it'll be interesting to see how i get myself outta this one.
maybe i should just say everything i feel, to everyone i feel for. and then fuck the consequences and the awkwardness and maybe what little i had left of them anyway. fuck it all.
i could just be honest with other people.
can't decide if being honest with other people is better or worse than being honest with yourself.
either way, i would very much like for someone to just wake me up when the shit has been cleaned off the fan.