April

the sudden sincere realization that i want your happiness for you.

before, i believed you to be happiest with me (and maybe you were, but didn't know it). and that's why it seemed right to me for you to be sad when we were apart.

but i want you to be happy; true, deep happiness that reaches down into your soul and pervades through you.

and i want you to have this more than i want you to be with me.