had dinner with my brother today. you know those leadership/business books where they always talk about having a mentor, and how it changed them in x amount of ways? i really believe that's what daniel's set the course to becoming. and i'm unbelievably blessed for it. it's frustrating a lot of times, but. idk, i actually took so much away from our meeting. he said this:
you have to have a plan. you have to be working towards it. it could be overarching, or long term, or it could change at the drop of a hat. but you can't just be floating. it's ok to not know what you want to do, but you should have an idea of what you want.
and after thinking about it, i might just have an idea. it's really scary, because that means you take responsibility for it now, right? but i'm thankful.
in other news, i was mulling a bit over the E and M situation in my spare time on the bus, the one that may be unfolding UNBEKNOWNST to me. i don't want him to sleep with her. i don't want him, knowing she's offering a no strings attached hookup, to be the kind of person who would take her up on it. i'm not being selfish because i don't want them to be together. they can be together; they might even deserve each other. i'm being selfish because if that happens, i don't want the knowledge that i liked a complete asshole.
salvage value's still something, innit darling?
meanwhile, popcorn's still in the microwave.