Thursday, October 11, 2012


an entry that i wrote years ago, addressed to tim
that i now would like to address to myself:


"what are you so afraid of?"

right? that's what you asked. here, then. here is a list.

  • that you aren't the right one for me.
  • not even that, but that i don't want you to be.
  • if sometime down the road, i decide i dont want you to be,
  • that i'll break your heart.
  • that i'll let you down
  • that i'll actually be happy being with you
  • years of rationalization
  • the same things everyone is afraid of
  • that you, that i, that we are not enough to overcome these fears. 

it is now, and only now, that i begin to see very real and very cruel parallels.

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