Wednesday, April 1, 2009

slow spinning redemption

I bought doughnuts today! Nothing can stop me now. Except for maybe a heart attack.

This is purely hypothetical, but has anyone ever tried to, um. Ride around in a laundromat drying machine? 

POLLEN. I spent yesterday wondering if I was getting sick, with all the sneezing and whatnot. And then I realized it was in fact the yellow SPORES OF DEATH. I'm not used to it being all tricky like this. In the dirty south pollen gets all in your face like O HAI i'm gonna cover everything in yellow bwahahahaa! Illinois is like you get snow. AND NOW FOR SPOREZ OF DEATH, SURPRISE LAWL. 

argh. I told my mom I wanted to get an apartment 2-3 years after I started working fulltime, and she got really sad. That's probably around 25...and rationally that's normal. But in my head I'm thinking, WHAT? That's only like 4.5 years from now. I'm too young for that. Us, self reliant? Come on, we can't even function normally now when everything's taken care of for us. Natural selection will kill us before we even step foot outside the door. Okay, exaggeration, but I don't even pass for pre-adult and I'm 20. I've got enough to handle actually trying to grow up, I almost wish I didn't have to worry about leaving my parents.

noticed today: everyone has REALLY BIG TRUCKS. seriously. srsly, they're like twice the size of regular trucks. 

12 comments:

  1. Children have died riding in laundry machines. I wouldn't suggest it.

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  2. i would totally suggest it. kids that aren't strong enough to ride laundry machines are just not up to standards -- did i just say that? uh... no.

    vindicated, i am selfish, i am wrong, i am right swear i knew it all along and i am flawed, but i'm cleaning up so well, i can see it in me now, what you swore you saw yourself

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  3. 25 is too late! At least for me. I want to get my own apartment as soon as possible, although it's not likely I'll be able to for a while. I dunno. I'd definitely like to move away as soon as I could, not because I don't love my parents, but because I feel like I need to learn how to be independent, and the sooner I do it, the better off I'll be. :-)

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  4. Man...25 is way too late, that's like...getting into the creepy, I still live with my parents stage. You're right in thinking that by then you should have moved out.

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  5. It may be creepy, but I have more to consider than just myself.

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  6. Well, as long as you're actually learning from your parents on how to live alone, I suppose that's okay.

    As for considering others and not just yourself, will you ever be able to consider yourself?

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  7. of course, there's not just one way to consider your parents.

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  8. It's not one or the other.. everyone puts themselves first by default. But I think if some things are going to affect them in such a huge way, I don't ever want to just consider myself. But then, it's family...so it's a little bit different. It's always been easier to be more careless with people who aren't kin.

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  9. True, and at the same time, it's always easier to be too careful with people who are kin. Your parents aren't weak people, they can survive without you being in the same house with them. But, like Stephanie says, there is not just one way to consider your parents. It would be terrible if you went out into the world and just stopped talking to them. It's not terrible to go out into the world, but still talk to them or visit them.

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  10. It's not being too careful, imo; I'm just dealing with the fact that the life I live isn't about me. And yes...they may be the strongest people I know, actually, to have come this far with that much emotional buildup. But that's why I need to be there. Part of growing up is understanding certain things come with obligations, and I won't be someone who denies their existence for the sake of my personal agenda. I mean, we all know that eventually living alone is a good thing. It's even highly likely that I'll end up buying a condo. And my parents aren't dependent people, they won't stop me.
    But that's all the more reason I have to take that reponsibility seriously. I honestly don't know what that entails just yet. All I know is that to solely consider myself would just be bad decision making. It's like a project leader making a call without consulting his team members. He's leading, but other people are invested too.

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  11. But sometimes, the project leader must make a hard decision to do what is the best for the team, even if the other team members disagree or dislike it. That's why he/she is the leader.

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  12. Sure, if that decision is best for the team. But if that leader is making decisions without their input and solely with his own benefit in mind, then that's not being a good leader at all.

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